Going Back to Paris & Seeing My Growth!
Paris reminds me of the younger me, what I promised my self, and how much growth I’ve made. The city of love reminds of my younger days when I was so full of joy, opportunities, and dreams. It shows me the difference between my 20’s and 30’s. We all can say how much we thought we knew in our 20’s versus our 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, and so fourth, and how mature we have gotten now; but I can truly say that in my 20’s I was too hard on myself and didn’t live my life to the fullest because of fear. At that age there were so many people looking up to me so I had to be an example. The example that I was not ready to be and did not want to be. I wish I would have lived more, done more adventurous things people in their 20’s do, and done more things in the city of love. Now i’m taking advantage and doing all of these things now. Back then I was more of an introvert, and very timid which stopped me from achieving a lot of goals that I had for myself. Now I’m the total opposite and taking initiative of every opportunity I have. Now in my 30’s I have gained more boldness and faith that I should have had when I was younger.
Faith to make big financial moves without having the funds for all of the expenses. Faith to jump into a new idea and know God will provide all that I need. The kind of faith that stands after loosing everything, but still knowing that God will provide something greater. Faith to know it’s going to get better and faith to go for what I believe in.
Boldness to turn down big offers because it will keep me from my happiness, but knowing that I will gain much more. Boldness to stand on my word, not back down, and tell others I’m worth so much more. Boldness to do different things that is out of the ordinary and not worry about what others have to say about it. Boldness to not hold back because of how someone will feel or get upset about my decision.
Having boldness like the first move my sister and I made to go to Paris though or finances were in a crumble, and to move out no matter our situation is what builds my growth.
This boldness I’ve always had, but only used it when it was my last option, or out of anger. Now I’m using the boldness more often to make the necessary life changes that are needed for me to grow.
The growth that I’ve gained throughout these years revealed so much to me. I realized the things in life that I deserve. I deserve self care, a peace of mind, happiness, and dependability from others that say they care for me. I deserve less stress, more vacations after how hard I worked, more money, and financial stability. I remind myself daily not to settle for something temporary, realizing that I am enough. I deserve not to let anxiety get in the way. I am worthy to have the resilience to say that I will accomplish all of my goals I promised to myself no matter what obstacles are thrown at me. With every triumph I build my growth and see a huge difference in my life.
Going back to Paris was more than just a trip back to the beautiful city of love, but it also was a trip back down memory lane to see how much I have grown! 🌻
